It Feels Worse Than It Looks (2021)
Oil on panel, 30cm x 30cm, Doug Moran National Portrait Prize Semi-finalist 2021, Ravenswood Australian Women's Art Prize Finalist 2022
Thoughts swirl in my mind like a colony of blind army ants, trapped in a ceaseless, spiralling march-each one lost, yet compelled to follow the others. When I'm caught in a wave of negative thinking, this analogy feels painfully true. But when I'm clear of it, it all seems a bit overblown.
Ant mills, with their hypnotic, disorienting patterns, are oddly beautiful to watch-yet the ants, locked into the loop of following each other, march themselves to their deaths. Only an outside force—a shift in the environment or a few exhausted ants breaking away-can interrupt the cycle and stop the march. For those who manage to escape, I imagine it's hard to understand how they got pulled in so deeply to begin with.
It Feels Worse Than It Looks (detail)
It Feels Worse Than It Looks (detail)
Install photo at Ravenswood School for Girls